On Being Weak

I struggle with weakness.

Today I realized a couple of things that are hard for me:

1) I do not do things that are "originally" strong.

2) I am professionally unimpressive.

3) I am constantly afraid.

4) I am embarrassed to be me.

I plan on writing more about these individually soon. There's a lot to them, and it's disheartening to do it all at once. I'm really scared about this period of meditation; I am quite sure I don't like the things I am finding out and trying to admit to myself. Still, I trust it is for the best in the end.

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